Tomorrows of Yesterdays

I cast a worried look at the clock, and sigh inwards. Again, I cast another look at the clock, and can’t help but to feel just a little bit more down. I seem to be running away from tomorrows lately, I don’t know, maybe I just don’t like the idea of having leave today and yesterdays and having to move on to tomorrows.

Yeah, I don’t like it. I don’t know… it’s not like I’d rather dwell in the past or something, but hell… I’m extremely content with the present. When the clock strikes 10.30pm, I mouse over my computer’s little clock, and go ”Ah fudge… Hello, tomorrow”.

You ask why I greet tomorrow when it isn’t even here yet. Perhaps it’s because, to me, sleep’s like the direct equivalent of zooming to tomorrow, I don’t know. Maybe fast-forward or something.

That’s just me, complacency.

It’s 11.24pm over here right now and my eyelids are already getting heavy, but again, I cast a look at my hall clock, and say a silent prayer; ”I hope tomorrow never comes”.

Don’t misintepret, I’m not saying it like, ”i hope i dont need to see the world tomorrow, i hope i die today” or something ridiculous like that. Of course not, I’m frickin’ going blind with each of my eyes ranking at 1000 + degrees, why the fudge would I want to die? I want to assin’ live, who doesn’t? My life’s blissful, no troubles, nothing pulling my heart down, laughing spastically at the dumbest things everyday, have my daily dose of bitchin, hatin’ that black faggot, suanning teachers, doing retarded things, eating my usual fried rice or laksa if it’s a Tuesday.

I just wish that I could stay right here, in tomorrow’s yesterday, just abit longer. At least, ’til I deem the time right. If only time would come to a stand still when we fall asleep. And then we’d wake up, all re-energized. Then again, it doesn’t really make sense, does it. It’s full of flaws, it lacks logic.

But honestly… I wake up every morning, going, ”Ah darn. How could 6 hours pass just like that? Doesn’t feel like 6 hours, I wish someone could give me another 6”, and fall back to sleep under the blanket wishing that I had 6 hours more instead of 6 minutes.

And then the first thing that I think of when I wake up is either some random word (seriously!) or ”i love sleep alot alot” or ”wriao eh so fast ah, abit more please”.

Sigh, sometimes I think I have this inferior complex thing. I don’t feel inferior all the time because I don’t bother to compare myself with others because I just can’t be assed to, but…

YOU SUPERFICIAL WHORES MAKE ME FEEL BAD BOUT MYSELF SOMETIMES!

Assholes.

~Sorrento

BOOM CHIKKA BANG BANG

HAHAHAHAHA I AM SO GOING TO MY WHITE NAIL POLISH AND MY DICKIES BAGPACK AND HOPEFULLY A NEW MP3 IF I HAVE THE MUNNEH BECAUSE MY STUPID ASSHOLE CHEAPSKATE 30 BUCK CHINA MICKEY MP3 DECIDED TO DO A PAKISTANI SUICIDE BOMBER AND.. AND….

; _;

DIE ON ME HOMG WDF THAT STUPID SHIT HOW DARE IT DIE ON THE LIKES OF ME I WASN’T EVEN DONE WITH IT YET I MEAN HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO PASS MY DAYS WITHOUT AMBLING DOWN SLEEPILY EVERYDAY AT LIKE 7AM WITH INSANELY LOUD AND EE MO MUSIC PLUGGED INTO MY CUTE LITTLE EARS AND TODAY WAS HELL ENOUGH I WAS SO SHOCKED AND ANGERED THAT I HAD THAT ‘BUAY SONG’ LOOK PLASTERED CLEARLY ON MY FACE FOR THE WORLD TO SEE FOR THE ENTIRE DAY THROUGHOUT AND I FEEL SO GLOOMY WDF CAN YOU IMAGINE NO MORE MUSIC AT NIGHT HOW AM I GONNA SLEEP HUH NO MORE MUSIC IN THE MORLENGS, ON MY WAY BACK HOME, EVERYWHERE HOMG THE HORROR !!!!!!

I AM SO SAD

:(

on a brighter side im really really poorshit right now and if my marler finds out what i did she’d go ballistic but lets put that behind us shall we

:D

AHAHAHAH OCH ON WEDDY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM HERE TO BUST THE STUPID RUMORS BOUT IT BEING FRICKIN HAUNTED ILL EVEN TAKE PICTURES FOR YALL TO SEE WITH MY SOOPER DOOPER 2MP CAMPHONE EHEHEHEHEHE

E-DA-ME-ME LOLOL

and uh ill work on the song when i get into the song making mood :< i cant really do music and tunes though, just will work on some larbishy lyrics during a boring period in school ^-^

TIL THEEEEEN TOODLES BAIBAI YAY

i am so sexcited, can you IMAGINE! WHITE NAILS I’LL CREATE A DAMN REVOLUTION FUCK YEAH

kinda forgotten what i wanted to say so ill say it if i ever remember loves

~Sorrento

“End of Forever” P01

…I feel so stupid all of a sudden.

YOUR ORAL.

TOO MUCH SINGLISH IS BAD FOR YOUR MARKS, OK. You need to have control over it. At least speak English when you’re having exams! From now on, don’t speak that much Singlish. Whenever you feel like adding a la, lei, or whatever behind, stop yourself! Because that’s what i do.

And so, let’s start doing the song. I have the electric piano, and if you want a piano piano, i can go to my friend’s house to play it… So i’ll be doing the music! We can make the lyrics together, and you can go make the melody / tune yourself, and YOU sing it because i suck at singing LOL.

So you said you wanted the words “End of Forever” to be in the lyrics?

How do you want to start?

I suggest we comment on this post for now, because creating a new post everytime gets troublesome to keep track of, yes?

~Krissified.

Hysterically disappointed

Sigh, like the title says. I’m hysterically disappointed. With who, you might ask? Those friends of yours again? Nuh, with myself.

I have ALWAYS, always counted on myself to do well for my English orals, ALWAYS. I’d never get jittery and let my nervous-ishness get to me and still my tongue but this time round…

IT WAS AN ABSOLUTE FRICKIN WALKING DISASTER

God…

So I was so nervous (I HAVE NO IDEA WHY MAYBE IT’S BECAUSE HE WAS CAUCASIAN) I kinda started displaying ADHD behaviour and was all over the place. The passage was an absolute failure, I read in monotone, and stumbled over SIMPLE words like ‘familiarity’. I mean WDF while I was preparing myself I even read it aloud so I wouldn’t screw up later. Like, ‘FER-MEE-LARE-REE-TEE’. AND THEN I TOTALLY IGNORED THE PRESENCE OF SOME WORDS THAT WERE PRESENT ON THE PASSAGE LOL WDF.

During the picture discussion thingy, I… argh. I COULDN’T DAMN TELL WHAT THE FUDGE THE PICTURE WAS DEPICTING EVEN THOUGH I SAW THE PICTURE QUITE SOME TIME BEFORE THE DAMN ORAL! I was like ”HUH IS THIS A CANTEEN AT A PRIMARY SCHOOL OR SOMETHING? IF ITS A CANTEEN WHY GOT SO MANY AUNTIES ONE, SOME MORE LOOK SO 1940′S!”. So I got real confused and all and blabbed that it was a scene at a canteen and later insisted that it was a foodcourt. -_- I STARTED EXPLAINING THE PICTURE AND THAT STUPID ANGMOR INVIGILATOR GUY STOPPED ME AFTER LIKE 2 SENTENCES AND POINTED HIS SILLY PEN AT SOME WITHERING OLD HAG and went ”what do you think she’s doing?” so I replied in a sentence and was gonna continue with my other five and then he…

STOPPED ME AGAIN AND PROCEEDED TO DIRECT MY ATTENTION TO ANOTHER HAG. I mean, WDF? WHAT IS WITH YOU DO I LOOK LIKE I NEED HELP? JUST LET ME EXPLAIN I’LL GET TO HER SOON ARGH!!!!! Even Solastri (sp?) was WAAAAAAAY better lor, she let me say my fill. This one LEH? DIRECT HERE DIRECT THERE PEOPLE HAVEN’T SAY FINISH DIAM DIAM AND LISTEN CAN. Not like I’m reading Harry Potter aloud or something, I JUST SAID ONE SENTENCE AND YOUR FINE WITH THAT? That’s hoppin’ insane!

So naturally I got quite… side-tracked because I couldn’t believe what was happening. Side-tracked = I disoriented and confused and lost = major screw up. We began the conversation part and he was like ”SO, WHAT FOOD DO YOU LIKE TO EAT?” and food is like my FAVOURITE topic so I started ”Oh, I love Long John Silvers-” and got interrupted again. IRRITATING LEH I WAS GONNA TELL HIM HOW I LIKED FRIED HOKKIEN PRAWN MEE, SPAGHETTI, PEPPER LUNCH, LAKSA, TOMYAM, AND THE OCCASIONAL SAKAE SUSHI. I mean wdf if he WANTED to have a nice lovely proper conversation with me about food, hell I’d be more than willing to participate.

HE WAS LIKE ‘OH SO YOU LIKE LONG JOHN SILVERS! FISH AND CHIPS EH? SO WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER THERE?”. I was so turned off by his abruptness and he wasn’t making me feel less nervous. In fact, he was ADDING to the jitters. I hate it when people cut me short when I’m not even near half done. So I gave stale answers that lacked any ‘interesting’-ishness to it with an extremely broken use of English. I mean, in a proper oral with proper Singaporean invigilators, I’d be like yapping my mouth off because I’m real comfortable with them. But hell… I was like ”Ya cos i very picky about, uh i mean when it comes to food one ma, so i like you know dont like to eat the veggies one lor, since they taste so awful no matter how you cook it lah”. GOOOOOOOOD!!!!

Seriously, I think it’s because of my influences. My little clique of 3 including me are mostly chinese-users, with the exception of myself. I can’t be like Englishing all the way right, so naturally I switch to my ‘deliberate-twittified-singlish’ mode. Thus I NEVER use good english, and when it comes to using good english I go all stuttery. Damn, I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

And when my colleagues were done with their orals, they came down with big grins on their faces, expectantly asking, ”YOU CONFIRM DO WELL FOR THE ORAL ONE RIGHT!!!!!!!!”.

:(

I’ve don’t have an inkling as to why the hell they think that way. I mean, he was so intimidating even though he was friendly and all, I’ve no idea why. I rather have someone real strict like Solastri come be the oral examiners. She seems real mean and all, but HELL SHE’S DAMN NICE when you have her as your oral examiner. More than regular smiles, grins and laughs. Makes you feel right at home. Helps quite a hell lot that she’s Singaporean and looks like one too.

I feel so awful that I came lugging home a heavy heart. Normally I’d be like ”AIYA JUST AN ORAL WHAT’S DONE IS DONE WHAT!”, but this time… I don’t know, it’s just an absolute walking disaster. If I don’t wake up my idea and speak good english in RL, seriously my future’s gonna be pitch black. It’s murky right now, if you were wondering.

And right til now I still have that ‘oh damn that sucked’ feeling lingering in my heart. I feel awfully down… Wish I could go stuff myself into a vending machine.

P.S

Regarding the sketchbook thing, we could like each doodle abit in it til it’s finished. And then we’ll wrap it in many many many many many layers of plastic and make something like a time capsule. I dunno LOL ._.

But if you insist on having someone keep it instead, I think you’d be the one better off keeping it. Whatever goes into my hands never comes back out, and even if it does it’d come back out in an awful condition. And I’m extremely prone to losing stuff, especially important ones, soooo….

Yeah.

And shure we could make the song ‘End of our Forever’ together, I don’t mind ^-^.

~Sorrento

Everlasting 02

I think every time i have a rant the title will be titled Everlasting…

Firstly, let me start by replying to your posts. Or post.

If you’re ever allowed to come i’ll host you~ If you come in the summer we can go Wonderland, but you’re afraid of rollercoasters and stuff soo…. >< If it’s the winter let’s play snow together and freeze to death. :D

And about the sketchbook. I thought of doing that but. It costs money… And the sketchbook is really heavy. >< Plus, after we’re done drawing in it, who’ll get to keep it then? So yeah.

BY THE WAY, ABOUT YOUR SONG, “END OF FOREVER” OR SOMETHING, WANNA WRITE IT TOGETHER? LOL. /asking shamelessly.

About your friends. I’m having the same problems here la. I’m not close to them, i don’t really like some of them, but i bear with them (oh my, i’m so kind, hmm?). The ones that i really like are not really close with me, and they each have their own friends that they wanna go wagging their tails to like a dog does.

And then the rest. After a while they throw me away, and then pick me up again, then throw me away. I’m tired of that, but they are like the only ones i hang out with. Everyone else has their own little clique and they won’t accept someone like me anyways.

So yes, i wish i was there too. I dislike my parents for ruining my life. I didn’t ask for this. I don’t want this!

~Krissifed

Indecisive.

Zzz extraordinarily pissed. Don’t you just hate it when you ask your friends out to eat ice-cream and all and they’re like ‘hell, why not?’ and then last minute they hesitate like nuts and go ‘uhhhh’ ‘i dunno leh’? Especially when they deliberately lag behind you and discuss ’bout whether to go or not in hush-hush tones. I mean, wdf is wrong with you all? Cannot discuss openly meh? Not that I INSIST on knowing whether you all are going or not and INSIST that you give me a reason for your refusal what.

And it’s wronger still when you try and act all normal with me and then lapse back into hush-hush tones and let me walk alone AGAIN. Seriously, it’s damn sickening.

So we reach the foyer, I asked again. ”So you all want to go or not? If want to go then go, don’t want to go then sua, no need wishy-washy stand around and hesitate. Just a simple yes or no what.” And then one tries to ‘get away’ from my question by typing ‘123456789′ on her handphone keypad and tell me ”I dunno leh…” (WHICH IS OBVIOUSLY A DAMN NO RIGHT ZZZZ IF YOU DON’T WANT GO JUST TELL ME CAN) and then stands around, not meeting my eyes and instead focusing on her stupid handphone. The other tells me AGAIN, ”I most probably not going.” Okay great your direct and decisive, don’t want go just say I won’t bite your heads off.

BUT WDF you know why I exhibited that ‘not happy’ aura? BECAUSE I WAS ALREADY QUITE PISSED OFF BY THE FACT THAT THE BOTH OF YOU HAD TO HUDDLE BEHIND ME AND DISCUSS ABOUT IT QUIETLY! And then to add salt to the wound you still haven’t came to a conclusion after all that shit. That’s just frickin’ damn retarded.

Talk about ‘pangseh’-ing, see if I’ll go out with you on Saturday. I hate it when both of you get awfully secretive around me, I really hate it. If you’re gonna do something bad, everything’s fine as long as no one sees you. BUT FUDGE YOUR LIKE WEARING A NEON PINK SHIRT WITH YOUR BRA HANGING OUTSIDE AND PRANCING AROUND PROUDLY DECLARING ”HEY PEOPLE IM TALKIN SHIT BOUT HER”. It just ticks me off big time. I’m sure I’m nice enough to not barge into both of your private little conversation that just happens to exclude me and ignore my presence completely.

And then when we were heading towards the gate, the plan was set. They weren’t going. Okay fine. So we walked, and then they AGAIN DELIBERATELY LAGGED BEHIND ME and giggled and talked shit ’bout god knows fudging what. Left out much?

What the hell do the both of you take me for? Just because I seem very tolerant and easy-going and dumbfucked on the outside doesn’t mean you can screw around with me right. Or would you rather I showed how I really feel everytime and then give you the damn black face and not laugh along and make the situation extremely tense and awkward?

WDF, I swear sometimes I’ve no idea why the fudge I’m even with you guys.

KX, I wish you were here. Right here in my school, no one thinks the same way as I do, no one shares the same indulgents as I do, no one’s mindset resembles mine in the slightest bit. And to click with the cohort I hafta be retarded and dumbfucked and bounce around like some flatchested airhead.

So hard to find someone who has things in common with me, so damm hard.

Damn fuck.

EDIT

… Calmed down abit, but anger’s still dancing in my heart. And I’m saying ‘i miss you’s to no one in particular, funny that I can’t think of any. Just a dull ache resides in the deepest abysses of my heart, nothing more. Something like a void, I guess.

So uh anyway… Kinda realized that my ‘inside’ and my ‘outside’ beings are totally different. My ‘inside’ is more prone to bouts of anger, doesn’t fear much with the exception of fire and ironically’s the one with the more ‘mature’ thinking, and also quite cynical/skeptical not to mention more emotional I think. Ah, introverted at times. But of course, the ‘emotional’ part is often kept in check, I do get occasional pangs of weakness but it doesn’t usually stay for long. Like after a few minutes it’s no longer there. I’d like to think of it as my defense mechanism or something, so I won’t get uh… depressed. After all, ‘clinically-depressed’ was NEVER in my dictionary. (Ah, I’m also more english-oriented on the inside O_o)

On to my ‘outside’. More bubbly, upbeat, loud, outspoken, playful,deliberately obnoxious, confident,  (i AM loud and outspoken both ways though), vulgar (LOL), sarcastic and cold when it comes to people whom I dislike (there’s only one, the one whom I hate so much that I can’t stand his every gesture, speech and presence), spendthriftish, glutton, autistically weird, bordering on diabetic, dumbfuck, oblivious to negativity,  stubborn, sulky at times, bitchy,  intense passion for photography and drawing, tends to be argumentative when it comes to authorities, no sense of respect/danger and calm at all the wrong times.

If I were to list out my every ‘outside’ quality I don’t think the list would ever end, LOL! And of course, my ‘outside’s in charge almost ALL the time lah. My ‘inside’ is just there for the sake of keeping me relatively sane, and serves as a reality check aside from many other functions that I can’t remember at the moment and will only remember when duty calls.

And yeah I’m oblivious to negativity both ways :<

I can’t help but to not notice lah, it’s like… YEAH THE DEFENSE MECHANISM thing that I mentioned!

; _;

I have abit of a split personality.

But of course, it’s not like I’ve bipolar disorder or some weird shit, just that…

:3

I’M ODD THAT WAY

Edit

This goes out to Shafeeq; the one who made BMS possible, the one who indirectly made my June holidays.

May your mother rest in peace, she fought well.

… :(

Life is so cruelly realistic. One moment you’re here, the next moment you’re gone.

~Sorrento

Nuh!

Nuh I don’t watch HSM neither do I like HSM, in fact I honestly abhor it quite abit since Disney never really captured my heart in the first place and I don’t like its genre anyway. And I was thinking ’bout a girl’s name and then thought of the word ’sassy’ so I derieved Vanessa from there. Jared’s just there because I like how it looks and sounds XD

And yeah my parents don’t like the idea of having me go somewhere on my own and worst without any adults there to uh… ’shepherd’ me along. And my marler wouldn’t want to come, her job doesn’t permit her to MIA. My farler would go all ”HOMG US DOLLAR LEH THEIR CURRENCY WERY BIG BIG WOR THINGS THERE SO EXPENSIVE THE FLIGHT ALONE’S A BOMB ALREADY DON’T WANT LAH DON’T BE STUPID” and burst my bubble. And it’s hogay, I like the cold anyway :<

AH YOUR BALCONY!!!! I REMEMBER YOU KEPT A CAN OF SOIL THERE OR SOMETHING DAMN AMUSING BECAUSE I’D LIKE GO ”WHO THE HELL KEEPS CANS OF SOIL LOL” and then there’s your silly running machine thingmajig and I’d always walk on it for the sake of it because it was quite fun although it wasn’t plugged in -_-. And we’d sit by the balcony and drink that home-made soup that we made or ogle at tadpoles or draw manga or do stupid things over there, and I recall it was always quite sandy at the balcony for some odd reason LOL!

About the drawing book thing… I GOT A SPONTANEOUS IDEA ^-^ I was thinking you could like draw/scribble/write 10 pages worth of randomshit and then send it over [of course, with a prayer that it doesn't get lost or get ripped apart along the way] and then I’d get it and do my 10 pages and send it over and vice versa!

And then we could do this occasional item exchange thingy once per month or per two months or w/e. Like I’d request for a red scarf and you’d request for whatever and then we’d send it over along with the scrapbook thingy with hope and it’d get to each other somehow >_<. Ah darn airmail!

Yeah I agree the blogskin’s quite ‘in-your-face’, mebbe that’s why I like it somehow. I LOVE THE CUSTOMIZABLE SHIT THE MOST ^-^ !!!

LOL@realname online shit. Well if she’s reaaally so fussy ’bout names and shit then tell the world ”HEY DON’T CALL ME BY MY RL NAME EVERYWHERE PLX0RZ PEOPLES WOULD KILLED MEH OH NONONONO SOB DON’T DO IT FWARGH NO”

And if either of them refuses to yield then it’d all become quite pointless and redundant leh, seeing that there’s no damn conclusion anyway. Suggest that they compromise or something lor. If that Fooz girl really has a thing ’bout people calling her name then okay, come up with a simpler name to type. Not something silly like [cAlL|MeH|gOd`&^&@#!@#!] or something lah, just something practical can. Like FruitTart or whatever. I don’t really like people knowing my name, much less calling me by my name. Of course if it’s in RL that can’t be helped lah, but online ah… I prefer people calling/addressing me as Spiffy. Short and sweet.

Uh… about the jappy thing. I can understand how ‘Lynn’ hates people who must include jappy prefix/subfixes in their daily speech lah. Eg. ”Ohaiyo gozaimasu desu~! Today got homeworku desu? Serious desu? NANI? BAKAYARO!” or something like that, pardon the lameness. As long as as it doesn’t get overly annoying, it’s fine. Don’t use it to attention-whore, don’t use it to act cute, use it for the sake of practicing, and I’m sure the world accepts it. Fudge those who don’t accept it, they can go suck goat deek and fap.

At least you got yourself an acquaintance or two in school right? Quite impressive, seeing that you’ve only just started school. If it was for my case I’d be damn antisocial and all, ehehehe. If she’s sucha bitch then bitch back, if your other friends find it unacceptable, talk it out with them level-headedly, and keep your temper in check. If they still reject your explanation, then fuck them, not meant to be.

Acceptance is sometimes… the hardest thing to gain. Sighz0r, I’d hate to be caught in these kinda situations. ‘Cos I take forever to open and warm up to people, it’s just like that for me.

And I think this catchphrase

‘We’ve reached the end of our forever”

sounds real nice somehow :3

Got my inspiration from ‘God is my forever’ from some random person’s PM.

SO…

WE’VE REACHED THE END OF OUR FOREVER

I think this’s song material leh. It’d be entitled ‘End of our Forever’ and then it’d have ”WE’VE REACHED THE END OF OUR FOREVER” in the ending part or chorus or something. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

~Sorrento

Everlasting 01.

You strawberry whore. >:

But i like strawberries too.

So what’d you mean by that when you said i never did change? I THINK I CHANGED THOUGH.

WELL. Long distance relationship is hard to maintain though. And i guess i’m just really really scared. I don’t want to be alone. Because wherever i go i’m all alone here. By the way, is that names from High School Musical? Oh my, so Cher watches HSM?!

And it’s alright, you don’t hafta get a webcam. Save the money! And save up more! Get a job or something. Then if i come back spend it all LOL. But yeah, i’ll have a budget. LIKE I ALWAYS DO, EH.

Why won’t your parents allow you? Do they think it’s unsafe or what? You could always come with your parents though, our basement is still empty, but there’s a problem on where you’ll be sleeping now, haha. BUT BUT, our basement’s bed doesn’t have a cover.

Now that i think about it, or rather, i was thinking about it a few days back. I miss living in HDB flats. I miss my balcony and the view it has, over the sea and across to Jurong Island (i think?). Over green stretches of lands, blue sea, the sun. And most of all, i miss my running machine LOL.

And your scarf, yeah i think i’ll be able to help you get one… I COULD SEND IT OVER ALONG WITH THE BOOK AS SOON AS I FINISH DRAWING IN IT YOU KNOW, LOL. Let’s see, i’ll write in it too then, take up more pages sooner.

OH AND THE THEME, WHEN I FIRST CAME TO THE BLOG, I WAS TOTALLY SHOCKED. ALL ‘WTF HAPPENED?’. >_> But i guess it’s ok. I wish we could change background colors though… *sad*

So yes, onto the point of this post.

My two friend was arguing when i got to class today. J, whom i shall call Fooz now, wanted Lynn to not call her by her real name on the internet, because she’s just that paranoid that people would track her down with just her English name which isn’t even on her passport and kill her, or something like that, alright? (I wonder if you mind if i call you by your real name…)

So Fooz was asking what’s so difficult to call her the CreaTOR online. My reasoning – 1. It’s a pain in the ass to type out. 2. It feels stupid. 3. What gives you the right to make us call you the CreaTOR which sounds like some kind of God’s name. But being the nice missy i am i didn’t tell that to her of course, so i just listened to them arguing. I don’t really care, see. It doesn’t involve me, haha.

Lynn mentioned about her blog and about an update (by the way, i’ll link the blog post, but well, if you’re gonna read her whole blog do be careful, because there’s some really nasty stuff there.)

So, for the whole of Art they were arguing about that, and then we (me and Fooz) left for PE while Lynn left for Maths. I just shrugged the whole thing off because i didn’t know why Fooz was making such a big fuss over it seeing that at that time i haven’t read Lynn’s blog post yet.

I came home, and while trying to kill time, and at the same time, procrastinating on the fact that i have to cook and i have homework to do, i went to her blog. And there’s this new post: which you can see here. So yes, i’d like to jump straight to the point where she copy and pasted the rant from dA.

1. If you can’t take it, ignore it. Sure, it gets annoying, like really annoying, but what are you to tell them to stop? There’s human rights in this world, and you can’t stop ‘em from doing what they want unless you kill ‘em.

2. “I’m studying the japanese language blah blah blah… what a lame excuse for a fangirl!” In case you, Cher, don’t know why i copy – pasted that sentence here, it’s because i’m starting to take Japanese classes. Right now if you would skip all the way down to the part where it goes: By MercuryLion. “But, you know..Just attempting to speak Japanese, and saying ‘ooh im teking a jepeness clesses’ is not an excuse.”

Alright, i understand it’s annoying to listen to people mix Japanese into English. But think about it, Japan people mix English into their Japanese too, because they’re trying to learn English. And what for? Just for educational purposes, it doesn’t mean that if you want to learn a new language means that you’re obsessed with something in that country, in this case: anime and manga.

It’s the same thing with Chinese and English. People mix it together in their sentences, so why not Japanese and English? I… Don’t know, i don’t get why we can’t do this. If you don’t like it, learn some self restrains and ignore it, yeah? My Maths teacher, he knows i speak Chinese, so he makes me speak Chinese to him. And if i speak English, he’ll be asking “what?” in Chinese back to me. Basically ignoring English and responding to Chinese, so i don’t get why can’t other people do that too. Is it that hard? I know i can do it, so why can’t they?

3. “Jenny, you ARE a screaming rabid fangirl, and you will not say that you’re an intelligent one too.. [Hey, I only scream on MSN and that's about the cool faces they make D:] And I quote, ‘OOH! HIBARI! Yadayada desu desu blah.’ Not an exact quote..” I… Don’t really do that even though i admit, i first got interested in learning Japanese because of anime and manga. But i put it this way: the Japanese animation and manga culture inspired me to learn more about the Japanese and their culture, which means their language included. It doesn’t mean that i’m learning Japanese for the sake of… Being a fangirl.

I don’t do much fangirling in real life, and even if i do, it’s not with people like this^, who shares no anime / manga interest. I’ll do it, and only on MSN with my friends in SG. Asians are way nicer. ^^

4. “It’s not just to fangirls, but to those.. people that think they’re so ’smart’ [maybe I am? =[ ] and trying to fool other people into thinking that they’re someone they’re not. Some people with the same experiences can see through that mask. Really, Jenny, it’s not a bad thing, but I know you’re a good person at heart. I know you wouldn’t try to kill people or take over the world or get paranoid about your name. …I mean it, I mean, you know how you always tell people to call you CreaTOR and stuff? Well, it’s not really necessary, because you prolly feel that, you know, you want to be all crazy/maniacal and stuff…”

I TOTALLY AGREE HAHA. Fooz thinks that she’s evil and all that, and she would say that she would kill you and everything but in truth, there’s no way that’s gonna happen. But well, she isn’t really fooling anyone because everyone knows that that’s not gonna happen. And what’s with the ’some people with the same experiences can see through that mask’? In the first place, there’s no ‘mask’ there anyways. It’s just a stupid, stupid idea that she can take over the world / kill everyone she hates, because everyone knows that she can’t do that. She can dream about doing that for all i (and everyone else) cares, but hey, reality is reality.

‘Masks’, huh? Fooz isn’t wearing a mask, and yet you say you can see through it? That’s really… I don’t know. Smart of you? I think i wear a mask and you can’t even see through it, how sad, heh. In the end, you’re not all that mature yourself.

I’m pissed after reading that post, i really was. ):

And also… There’s this other girl, let’s name her… Mez, yes?

SO SHE AND I DON’T REALLY GET ALONG, AND I FEEL THAT SHE’S TRYING TO STEAL MY FRIENDS AWAY (since we both have the same group anyways). WELL, MAYBE I WAS THE ONE WHO STOLE THEM AWAY, AND NOW SHE’S TRYING TO GET THEM BACK? BUT SEE, THE REST DOESN’T REALLY LIKE HER EITHER.

So yeah. She heard about Fooz, Joy, some other people, and my Japanese classes (since it’s all by the school board), and she wanted to go. When i was online she bothered me and asked me to details. I gave her the website but told her that online registration closed like. She told me she wouldn’t go then. And the next day, she was talking to Fooz saying, ‘Well, it’s obvious that she (meaning me, duh) doesn’t want me to go.’ YES I DON’T. NO ONE DOES. SO FUCK OFF. :\

^Main reason why i feel so alone in school.

Second reason is that i never belonged there in the first place. Yeah i get it, don’t hafta rub your fucking ass in my face. I’ll flee myself~

God.

Fuck.

This.

~Krissified

Shucker of Strawberries

Chocolate whore :<

YOU NEVER DID CHANGE LOL

So anyway why the negativity :3

Never hear of long distance relationships before ah!!

How’d you think they maintain it? They deffy don’t go ”homg :( i hope jared comes to new york to visit me, what if he’s dating that friend of his, vanessa right now? damn, that fag better get his ass over here right now, or our bonds will crumble like a cookie and then we’d breakup…. NO I CAN’T SAY THAT I LOVE JARED NONONONON JAAAAAAAAAAAAREDDDDDD”

Quite hysterical lah -_-

So anyway! My point was that bonds CAN be maintained one lah, stupid! Hey you should be worrying only if we’re not keeping in any form of touch or something [OI WE SHARESHARE THIS BLOG PROJECT THINGY IS ALREADY KEEPING IN A FORM OF TOUCH ALBEIT NOT SO DIRECTLY HOGAY!!!], if I can afford a webcam [that is, when i get over my debts lor <_<] we’ll webcam on every sunday/sat or something and do stupid shit :D

And it’s still early lah, now’s like late september only, I’m sure there’re many many many other flights from a myriad of airlines that’d be more than happy to have your paying ass on their seats!

… Sigh. Would be great if my parents allowed me to solo go overseas lor, would be great. Then you wouldn’t hafta worry ’bout not being able to catch a flight to SG. Or mebbe you could call all your friends and we’d meet in some country that’s sandwiched in the middle of SG and Canny! Spotaneously stupid somehow -_-

AAAAAH YOU KNOW WHAT KX

Don’t dwell on things that get you down!!!!

Let things be all peace-ish and funn-ish til some idiot throws reality in your face like how you throw pie at other people and then be devastated and ee mo and shit there and then lah, why worry ahead? :b Humans are silly, they procrastinate for all the wrongest things and un-procrastinate for all the rightest things.

SO YEAH DON’T FRET

Let’s say… worse to worse you can’t come over to SG

I’M SHURE WE’LL ALL PLAN SOMETHING NICE TO MAKE UP FOR IT RIGHT!!!

Conclusion -

Worry ’bout what’s gonna happen when the bumbleheaded scientists fix that huge chunk of LHC or something, (largehaldroncollidershit) and decide to send protons neutrons electrons whirling all round that metal tunnel of theirs and SEND THE EARTH INTO A BLACK HOLE AND END OUR LIVES DRASTICALLY HOMG

isn’t that terrible, i would die not being able to play the guitar, i would die not being able to write a short novel, i would die not having a portfolio of drawings/photographs, i would die knowing that i never got the chance to attempt to get into NAFA or NP’s mass comm, i would die knowing that my life’s not even halfway through.

; _;

oh the negativity!

…

BUT AT LEAST I’D DIE KNOWING THAT MY HEART IS CONTENT!

Now that I’ve gotten my SEX 69 class jersey…

I AM SOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!

P.S

KX if you ever see any skinny scarfs over there in Canny, not those pashmina-ish ones [i don't want those with frills or lace or stuff at the end, and i dont want those thick thick heavy heavy kinds either] and they happen to come in red, TELL ME TELL ME I’D LIKE GO AND BUY IT SOMEHOW because i’ve been lusting after a red skinny scarf for the LOOOOOOOOOOOOONGEST TIME ARGH

summat like this -> http://bp2.blogger.com/_l0VZhb6pL9Q/R2pKNEQ2C0I/AAAAAAAAANA/0OMDOq2FXFk/s1600-h/CIMG2536.JPG

My lovey!

And I ABSOLUTELY ADORE RITSUKA FROM LOVELESS HOMGHOMGHOMG I’D GIVE ANYTHING TO OWN HIM

EDIT | O_O

FOUND THIS WURBLEH THEME

editted it

tweaked it

and now you have it

THIS FABBY UNIQUE LOOK!!!

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE IT TO BITS HOMGHOMHGHOMMG

the more i rook at euu the more i wurb euu

x333333333333333333333333333333333333333

YAY WUNKERFUL THEME WUNKERFUL THEME WOOOOO ^-^

GOD KX THIS IS CUSTOMIZABLE LEH!

if you sian of it can go change the text in the [star-spangled reveries] there and the

[なに?]

FIRST TIME I SEE WORDPRESS THEME SO INTERCHANGABLE ONE LEH

:D

try to avoid changing this skin to something else hogay

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE IT TO BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITS WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OF COURSE IF YOUR FEELING DOWN ON THAT DAY YOU COULD CHANGE THE

なに?

to something like

:(

or if your feeling bizarre

O_O

or if skeptical or summat

-_-

or if really really happy

:D

or if your raging mad

D:<

or mebbe you feel like symbols …

try putting this

✈

AEROPLANE believe me it looks FANTABULOUS serious

or mebbe you feel german or french or chinese or jappy or whatever you want to feel

you can put random language there too

HOW COOL IS THAT?!?!!?

EDIT  | -_-

Forgot to say something that I wanted to say in here for the entire damn day

HERE I GO

I HATE YIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

give your name fugly colours cos you dont deserve chio colours

SO ANYWAY

YOUR SUCH A PMS-ISH BITCH LOR!

A LITTLE BIT ONLY KPBKPKBPKBPKBKPBPKPBKPBPBKBPBKPBKBPKBPKBPKBPBKPBKPBKB

PATIENCE SO SHORT

GOT THAT KIAM PAH LOOK ON YOUR CENTRE-PARTED PIMPLE INFESTED FACE ALL THE TIME

stupid warstruck face.

ALREADY EVERYTHING WRITE CLEAR CLEAR STILL WANT US EXPLAIN SHIT AH???

crazybitch

SERIOUSLY LOR I THINK YOU IN DESPERATE NEED OF ANGER MANAGEMENT LEH

god knows [or w/e religious figure you pray to] how your kids and husband tahan you lor, demented h0ar.

no patience?

no tolerance?

constantly taking your PMS out on us?

don’t be teacher lor, knn.

~Sorrento

Chocolate milk

I like it.

Anyway… About going back to Singapore. Didn’t i say that it’s not confirmed yet? My mom, she gave the go – ahead, but she hasn’t really confirmed with me whether i can go back or not. And they’re not buying the tickets. ):

*sigh*

I really really wish i could go back. But what if i can’t? Then it’ll be next year. I’m really worried over that… Because to me, the longer i stay away, the weaker our bonds become.

~Krissified.

Hugz0r

I am sooooo anticipating your return to Singapore :<

I PLAN TO TAKE PLENTY PLENTY OF PICTURES [not camwhorish kinds lah]

those artistic artistic ones that look like it was done by a professional photographer and shit

AND THEN YES HAUNTED HOUSES

and then do unconventional outdoor-ish things

and revisit childhood hangouts and all

AND THEN WE’LL DO AN ON THE SPOT TRIBUTE DRAWING THINGY FOR EACH OTHER

and then do something damn memorable in some place

[PLEASE DON'T GET SILLY THOUGHTS LOL]

and then we shall get rings, YES! or make our own flenship necklace choker thingy of sorts [DIY! we'll get weird trinkets from here and there and make something nicely unique]

and then do some shopping and shit

and i don’t know what else because there may be unfavourable time constraints and stuff, sooo…

:D

BONJOUR LOL

~Sorrento

Fragile

I haven’t spoken to you in a whileeee. ):

I’ve noticed how fragile things are. Just one touch, you just need something to go wrong, and then everything comes crashing down onto you. And it take ages to stack them back.

Um.

I’m so busy…

But the good news is that i’m starting to work on the picture that i owe you since a long time ago. DX I’m sorry. *bows*

I’ll try to update more tomorrow! Really!

~Krissified

Empty.

I penned a post about how I felt empty

but for some odd reason it’s gone, can’t seem to find it.

So anyway I feel empty.

~Sorrento

NO SHIT!

HOMG as all of you know the stock markets crashed more than recently, right? While I was eating my instant noodles, a shocking realisation struck me like some lovebolt! I RECALL THAT MY EX PREDICTED IT LEH!!! HOW FASCINATING IS THAT?! I recall it was in end 07 or something! Was like telling me ’bout how I should tell my parents and all and how there was gonna be retrenchments and economy would fluctuate and shit and stock markets will crash drastically and many stockbrokers etc etc would be ’slaughtered’ by this event!

AND LOOK NOW! IT REALLY DID CRASH!!

Oh gawd, this is kinda…

I DUNNO ITS LIKE NOSTALGIA + AMAZEMENT + BEWILDERMENT all rojak’d into one leh.

GOD AT TIMES LIKE THIS I KINDA MISS YOU LEH LOL

Then again, after much careful-er thinking, I faintly recall you telling me that your dad, (or was it your mother?) told you ’bout it and told you to tell your friends (or was it just me hallucinating) or something.

W/E lah, I just feel immensely grateful right now because my parents are relatively unaffected by it, yayness ^-^

SO YEAH LOL this post’s just to thank my ex for uh… ‘predicting’ the crash of stockmarkets or summat.

And I’m so frickin’ broke right now :(

Just spent $70 ++ on clothes, can’t even buy lunch/dinner. I think ima camp at home like an emo hermit.

~Sorrento

Short Hours

I wish i did my Maths homework yesterday.

But, it doesn’t matter.

Anyway, so pointless updates -

♥ I found this really… Well, not really. But it’s a kinda old notebook which i bought over from SG. It’s those kind of… Blank paper types, not those with lines, ok? And since i won’t be using it for anything else, i thought, hey, why not use it to doddle stuff? It’ll be like a mini sketchbook thing. And i was thinking that after i finished the whole book i’ll be mailing it to you… But it’s like, 90 pages and i’ve only drawn… One page.

♥ Dad was making smoothies with the newly bought blender. It tastes weird… >_>

♥ I feel that i’m having less time to… Go on the internet, surf it, etc. I have to sleep at 10, my ‘net goes off at around 9:30 (which sucks, btw). I don’t have access to CR to watch my animes… ): And when i get back home it’s always around 3:45 – 4++ (on Thursdays even later), and then i’ll have around an hour (until 5) of computer, then i will be cooking until around 7 (that’s 2 hours of cooking!!! Lol i suck). And then i’ll hafta bath… Etc.

♥ I’m not sure if i can go back, but i think i can. I can’t wait for Dec cause my birthday – and if possible, i’ll be spending it in SG. Which is like… Hot. ._.

♥ I’M REALLY SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING MUCH!! I hardly ever get time to surf the net… Cause i have homework and what nots LOL. And then… I really have nothing interesting to say anyways. ._. But i’ll still update this like… I dunno, at least once a week?

BY THE WAY, I HATE MY INTEGRATED TECHNOLOGIES TEACHER. K THANKS.

~Krissified ♥