Unrepentant

I’m so sick and tired of myself…

I never learn my lesson, I refuse to yield, I insist on keeping up that ‘tough-guy’ farce, I remain mute when it comes to fessin up, I fuck people up and ruin their nights, I can make friendships go boom in a snap, I shit on people when I’m feeling awful, I get all offensive when people mean no harm.

And I think myself as an open-minded person.

WDF I can’t even type out what the fuck’s bugging me, I don’t know WDF is wrong with me lah. I feel so fucking upset right now I could just take a flying leap. I hate it when I drag people down along with my feelings, I really hate it.

I’m such a major cunt, and hell I haven’t felt like this for a darn long time. Gonna pray I don’t cry myself to sleep tonight again, haha. At least I know I was never cut out for serious talks, especially if the other party’s so dead honest that it hurts so damn bad.

:(

I’m feeling shit.

I’d like to turn in and sleep all this unhappiness away but my mind’s wide awake and the only thing’s that keeping me from shedding tears of frustration’s the awfully loud, fast-paced music.

I hate this.

Well I suppose this is it.

I’ve lost yet another friend.

Fuck, I’m not very good at this, am I. Yet another one has bitten the dust, oh the joy.

Your honesty is going to be my undoing, the hurt’s all coming back. Mebbe we’re better off this way.

~Sorrento