The same energy’s now a dead battery

Like the title says, ya I’m pretty much a dead battery. I’m so really tired that fatigue has taken the glutton out of me already. I don’t know when the heck I’ve became such a workaholic. I do my work til like 11+pm closing 12. And then if I don’t manage to complete it I get that bizarre jittery feeling and all.  I then wake up next morning, feeling so drained and of course, in an awful mood. No energy to hyper, what you expect!

Yeah so when I get home (like now for instance), there’s this weird nagging feeling telling me that I’ve work to do I’ve work to do and it’s so uncomfortable but I’m too tired to go do so everyday I kinda ‘开工’ at 9pm and annoy people on MSN by asking them stuff that I don’t know. Call me paranoid but I’ve been wondering whether anyone truly finds me a nuisance and wants me to just fark off, heh.

Ironic thing’s that my grades aren’t especially improving. Reputation isn’t either, hopefully not among my peers though. Hard to say actually -_-. Found more people to go out with, kinda reassuring but at the same time I don’t think my wallet takes it too kindly huh. Ya I know my tone is especially dead, bo bian also, really damn shagged.

So if you find me like… suddenly never update on my life and stuff it probably means that I got home at 9+pm and am trying to finish my work and just go to sleep and hope I oversleep or something. And I long lost hope in English, I know very easily kena discouraged. Ah well. At least now that I actually give Chinese a LITTLE bit of my interest, hopefully one less u-grade in my report huh.

Don’t worry I won’t MIA. If I don’t manage to find the time to post, I’ll at least update with picture(s) okay. And no I won’t sound this dead forever, don’t worry just burned out for quite some time.

And I realized I have this bizarre penchant for screwing things up for my own selfish wants. No wonder our friendship’s on the rocks huh. Like we can NEVER have a nice proper conversation without misunderstandings, dao answers and stuff. So we have like some kinda self-initiated cold war with the other party and pout and don’t talk to each other for 2 days or more, depending on how much our pride and heart can take. Ironically, we’re both constantly opening and closing our MSN window to view our contact list to see if we’re online or not, hoping silently that either one initiates a conversation. We keep waiting and waiting til the very last minute when someone shuts the computer down, and also til the very next day, when we’ll each silently wait for someone to give in and hopefully sms or something.

I really hope we can pull our friendship through this, I hate losing friends. After all, one’s gone already. Beyond salvation. Every time I point out the mistake and attempt to patch it back and pray you will wake up but it just… I don’t know, fades away gradually with each effort. So ya can say I given up. You give that disinterested vibe, don’t you come and talk smack and tell me that you aren’t. Your LOLs might as well be just a dao ‘lol.’, you’re no longer the same person, we’re both so warped we’re beyond rescue. I can’t even find the ability to… like talk for hours on bent and stuff. Oh well. Takes two to tango I guess. Goodbye my ex-soulmate. Ironically (yayayaya I know 3rd time I used this word already) both of you downright hate each other to the damn core also. Like I can do anything like that, egoistic boys.

Forking

Goodnight and goodbye, world.

P.S -

PNS handphone camera most geng for jiaobin, pleez dont spoil the photography society with your half assed ”PHOTOGRAPHIC SKILLS” with your dumbfuck dslr worsh.

No skill, no eye for detail, use til so professional for huat. In the end also lose face, use so grand item to produce so shitty photos. Some more use photoshop do what, deliberately oversaturate or desaturate. Things like those can be done with a 1.3mp camera pleez dont waste your mummydaddy’s money. If you buy a dslr or slr for flaunting purposes and carry it like one sheep like that use one hand act strong to take picture can jolly well throw your dslr into the sengkapok river, i think it’d be happier loh.

And ah don’t purposely camwhore with a dslr/slr, place emphasis on the brand like nikon or canon or whatever, because very degrading to photography and the camera wor.

Later they sad how.

Ya I know I wery bitchy but moi DETEST poseurs. Spoil moi image onree, give people the impression that I’m one of THEM. Woah throw face man. They can use their flashy ‘high end’ cameras and end up with shitty pictures and cliche angles. Me show you that I can produce much better looking ones in terms of almost all aspects with my 2mp PNS hp cam to shut you poseurs up.

Disgusting.

I hate people who get into photography for the sake of being trendy. Want click in please at least exercise common sense and join a more affordable and cheaper trend (match your personality) for your own good.

Loves!

~Sorrento