hairyhairy

I’d love to rant about how much my hair fucking sucks for a $31.05 haircut (the most expensive haircut I’ve ever had in my entire freaking life can you believe it), but I’ve been at it for a day and a half so I guess I’m kinda sick of whining already.

It sucks so much that it looks self-cut (I think i can do a way better job) and it looks like some straggly stray dog and I look shittier with this hair than my previous one, oh Jesus.

It’s like… short and curly now. Pubic hair much?

Go me.

I swear, I’m not gonna step into a single saloon ever again. That is, til my hair starts to grow lice and stuff. Or maybe til it reaches my ass. (by then I’ll be 21)

:’(

~234TH!

Because I love you so much,

but you don’t know.

Darling watch my heart go up in flames.

Kx I wanna see pictures of you ;_; 
Miss ya.

~Sorrento

RECURRINGXNIGHTMARE

… Only thing that this time, no one’s around to break my fall.

:( I think it’s about time I stopped hoping and search for greener pastures, huh.

Anyway on a brighter note I’ve decided to save up for a DSLR, forgot the exact name but it’s a sony one (quiet protest) but better than nothing right :). Ehehe, $888, very cheap already can! I’m planning to save $20 a week, so it’d take me approximately a year. Le sigh. Am I worth the wait, dear DSLR?

~Sorrento

~FICKLEXHATE

I hate fickle minded men as well as people whom hate for the sake of hating.

~Sorrento

NOSTALGIAXDREAM

… There’s this real bizarre dream I had last night. Dreamt of my ex, I mean like WDF heck I don’t even miss or long to be by his side or anything, so random and all >_>. Kinda sounds like some cheapskate movie plot or something actually o_O!!

‘’so what’ve you been doing the past few months huh, haven’t heard from you for a real long time.”

”heh, nothing much, y’know, getting on with life and all.”

”… actually, truth is, I’ve been thinking ’bout stuff and uh, wanna get back together?”

Editor’s note: And even though I was hell tempted to say yes (I HAVE NO IDEA WHY, if it happened in rl of course it’d be hell no lah!), my insides writhed and twisted and my throat felt strangely strained, like how you’d feel trying to keep your tears down even though you were choking already. Then I began crying (!!!!) I’d NEVER be that vulnerable in rl, it’d crush my pride!

”Oh god, wait, wait why’re you crying? Was it something I said..?”

”Don’t say things that you don’t mean… Even though it’s been so long, I can still read you like an open book.”

-awkward silence to be filled with quiet sobbing sounds-

”Yeah, I guess you’re right, I can never hide anything from you huh. God, I dunno where to start. I wanna apologise for… ah you know it don’t you. So anyway yeah I like this girl…”

”…and stuff didn’t go too well with her, did it? I get it, there’s no need for you to continue. I know you weren’t in the right state of mind earlier on, y’know like frayed with emotions and all, I’m like that sometimes too. No need to explain, I understand.”

*smiles

”Thanks for… yeah everything. Bye!”

And I swear to god, the night before I didn’t even think of anyone at all, I’ve absolutely NO IDEA why I dreamt about this, of all other possible things like my dream home or night cycling or something.

Weird huh. Maybe it’s trying to tell me something, I don’t know.

And something scarily coincidental too! I went to CCK today, which was like practically BRIMMING with memories of my ex.

What the fuck’s wrong with me?

~Sorrento

UNREQUITEDXLOVE

hagendazzed@lj

What I can’t have, I’ll love more. Once I get it, I get complacent and don’t love it as much. But when I can’t have it, my heart aches with confusion and yearning sometimes :S And as a result, I’ll go all out to ‘chase’ (p.s i like the chase), but once the journey gets too lengthy, I’ll tire out and experience greater ache because nothing came out of my venture. My heart is DAMN easily wavered by actions and stuff… so yeah.

My unliberated desire, heh.

Thought it’s love we both want
It’s a love we don’t need
Let’s sit here in silence
Let out heats bleed

Please don’t tell me that’s so. And yeah, NP, home of the best bubbletea is officially over, le sigh. Back to school guys.

~Sorrento

emoxhectic

hai life’s real all over the place lately, thus lack of updates heh. Like cmon spare me, 8am-5pm days, reach home at like 8pm, sleep at 10pm, 14 assignments undone, due on Monday. Tell me what’s not to cry over huh :(

Well I haven’t cried til my eyes were swollen for a long long time, guess too much pent  up emotions and I guess I kinda just, well snapped. Shit happens.

p.s if i ain’t here, i’m there ;) I update at difference places based on mood and stuff, mm. I’ve a LJ and so much more but many are dead, guess our wp’s still burning after close to a year huh. Sucha loyal little fag, aren’t i. oh the woes of unrequited love sighhhhhhhh. It’s been a while, KX, it’s been a while.

~Sorrento

SHOPXSTEAMBOAT

JUST GOT BACK FROM STEAMBOAAAT @ FRIEND’S HOUSE :D

Anyway! I thought I needed a shopping list of sorts because my memory is atrocious and has a pathetic space of 16mb only :(

LISTE DE MAGASINAGE

- Wax for spiking my hair

- Bright coloured Eastpak (prefably yellow/red)

- Wallet where I can stuff my coins cards and notes in nice lil sections

- Trucker cap

... i have this weird feeling there's more but damn it slipped my mind :S

And and! Shit I forgot what I wanted to say again -_- AH I REMEMBER ALREADY!!!!! YOU KNOW MY ENGLISH EXAMS I SCORED A DAMN MEDIOCRE 58/100 LOL LAH :((((((((( My god I’m damn demoralized and discouraged to the extent that I’m actually gonna speak Chinese from today onwards ;(

BOW WOW ABUSE AHHHHH >:(

HEHEHEHE THIS IS SO DUMBFUCK LOL!

MORE TO COME, WAIT TIL I PHOTOSHOP THE COLOURS PRETTY PRETTY PLOCKS!

P.S – The photos are all snapshots and are purely candid, they were NOT POSED ONES Dx

~Sorrento

~BIKINIXSUNKISSED

Yes, imagine me in a bikini.

Oh the horror huh. Pix up later, when I get it.

Sometimes I really don’t know what to think… I thought about it  til I was so angry this morning but couldn’t do anything because my handphone was flat :S. But hell… not that I oppose you or something, but… I dunno. I’m so disappointed in you somehow. Why…?

Can you imagine! A friggin bikini costs FORTY BUCKS. YES YOU GOT THAT RIGHT, FORTY BUCKS WDF!!!!!!

Forgot what I wanted to say, catcha later.

~Sorrento

~YOUGOGIRLXREFLECTION

YOU GO, KX :D !!!!!

I SUPPORT YOU 100% OMG GO FOR IT!

Honestly, that’s one of the best stuff I’ve heard from you for a long, long time!

I’m so happy for you xD You finally woke up your idea. Now, I wonder when I’ll wake up mine. Perhaps not for a long, long time since I’m sucha demotivated, unappreciative, insensible person ~_~.

Alors que j’étais sur la cabine de Jurong Point, j’ai un peu fait des auto-réflexion. Réalisé til que jusqu’à maintenant, les gens chanté pour moi (mais les morceaux ne sont évidemment pas écrit par eux-mêmes), mais ne l’avait fait par écrit et enregistré leur propre chanson et dédié à moi.

J’ai alors réalisé que ce que shitbag d’un ami, j’ai été. Mais il est trop tard maintenant, n’est-ce pas. Nous ne pouvons pas revenir en arrière, peu importe combien je veux. Le temps a passé trop vite et trop durement, il est en effet trop tard. Nos relations sont déjà effiloché, je tente désespérément de sauver ce que je peux, mais il semble que mes efforts ne sont que des choses.

Et, avec l’érosion du temps, est l’érosion de mon coeur.
Jeremy, je vous ai fait mal. Je suis un ami de merde. J’ai trahi votre confiance, beaucoup trop de temps. Vous avez confiance en moi de tout votre coeur, mais pas plus. Je n’ai pas trésor de votre confiance, je vous a pris pour acquis.

… Êtes-vous prêt à nous donner un autre coup, ou est-il trop tard?

Has your heart been too embittered by my faults?

Fuckshit translation, whatever.

While I was on the cab to Jurong Point, I kinda did some self reflection. Realized that up til now, people sung to me (but the songs were obviously not written by themselves), but no one had actually written and recorded their own song and dedicated it to me.

Then I realized what a shitbag of a friend, I was. But it’s far too late now, isn’t it. We can’t go back, no matter how much I want to. Time has passed far too fast and far too harshly, it’s indeed too late. Our relations are so frayed already, I’m desperately trying to salvage what I can, but it seems my efforts are only making things worse.
And with the erosion of time, comes the erosion of my heart.
Jeremy, I’ve done you wrong. I’ve been a shit friend. I’ve betrayed your trust far too many times. You once trusted me with all your heart, but not anymore. I didn’t treasure your trust, I took you for granted.

… Are you willing to give us another shot, or is it far too late?

HAHAHHA ENOUGH OF THE EMOSHITFUCK ALREADY LAH, SO NOT ME. SO ANYWAY

MY NIGHT HAS BEEN MADE BY THIS CB FX, WHOLE SCHOOL SCANDAL MAN LOLLLLLLLLLLLL.

LOVE YOU LAH K.

PORTIA, DON’T BE TOO COMPLACENT. I’M OUT TO SCANDAL AWAY YOUR CHEEHOONG,

DON’T BELITTLE ME, I ALREADY SCANDAL’D AWAY FROG.

I AM THE QUEEN OF SCANDALS, LIFE IS FUCKSHIT AWESOME.

P.S I FUCKING LOVE MY SHORT FRINGE OKAY IT MAKES ME LOOK CHIOER X69 I HOPE IT NEVER GROWS, EVEN IF IT DOES I’M JUST GONNA CUT IT AGAIN HAHAHAHA NO MORE EMOSHIT FRINGE. HELLO GORGEOUS!

~Sorrento

CONTEMPLATIONXUNSURE

What’d you do if I told you I loved you?

~Sorrento

DESPONDENTXBLEAK

I dunno what to do now.

Maybe it’s just as it is, both of us come from totally different worlds, and like you said, 90% of the time, we think differently.

Maybe you’re right, it’s getting pointless. I should really stop trying, stop trying to patch things up, stop trying to get you to open up to me, stop trying to make things alright once again.

… I feel so bleak.

It’s like we can never find a common topic to actually talk about, and once we do, we normally argue lol.

We can never get along…

Although I AM touched that you even wrote and sung a song dedicated to me… I dunno. It makes me want to treasure this friendship so much more. I’ve never met someone so dedicated, and yet so distant.

How I wish we’d return to the start :(

The things that I’d do to just be able to make things okay again, you wouldn’t know. How’d things change so much within a span of 1 month?

You know what I really want? My goal, my purpose of being nice and getting you to open up all along?

…. I’m trying to forcefully revert us back to the good ol’ times where we were like happy idiots.

My heart is dying.

~Sorrento

~GOBSMACKEDXSTARCROSSED

Lengthy title, but whatever.

I think I just got lectured today… <_< And for once I dunno what to say or how to reply. I don’t even feel like replying actually, my mind’s stuck. Maybe it’s the fear of offending the one in question? I dunno, I don’t want to know, I don’t want to run away.

I’ll review it again later tonight and reply, hopefully.

And omg my amaths and emaths suck so badly, I was the only one who scored 0 for both tests and am the shittiest one in class lol. I mean it’s pathetic to the extent that I can just stare at the paper blankly and not absorb a thing. It’s so absurd, I think I’m retarded.

For the record, I’m not a pretentious person and never will be k? Stop thinking so badly of me and make your own assumptions and draw your own conclusions, I hate that.

If you don’t want me to give a damn then fine I won’t.

~Sorrento

~BIZARREXCONFUSION

omg seriously, i dunno what to do.

It’s like either path I take, confirm got negative consequences to bear. I wanna tell you so much, talk things over, but yet I dunno if I should. I’ve no idea what might set you off, I’m so unsure it’s so scary. Worst thing’s that no one’s there for me now. Even if someone were to be there, I don’t expect that person to be very happy if I open up and pour out my sorrows lol.

Sigh… When did things get so messy? I feel so confused, so lost. I think imma confront him about it tomorrow, I hope I bother to remember.

Should I go for someone whom is totally not my type and someone whom I will never click with, much less get into a r/s with?

Heart says HELL YES, mind says FUCK NO.

How? :(

I’m so tempted to go yes, honestly I’m a bitch.

I’m such a bloody hongster at times… I like doing things that will screw up lives. I know I’ll make his life so much more miserable, but hell why do I still persist?

Fuck me.

~Sorrento

~RetardOnReplay

HAI HAI I’M BACK!

So anyway I thought of something :D

Wanna like exchange recent pictures of ourselves, so we can like see how much we’ve changed from how we used to be and stuff? xD

Get back to me ASAP, kinda short on time now, I’ll update something really awesome next time round k.

LOOOOOOKING FORWAAAAAAAARD TO YOUR RESPONSE ~

You’re so bizarre, I don’t know what to think of you. I mean c’mon, you’re so closed up I can’t even determine how the hell you feel.

Can’t we ever get along?

~Sorrento